19 wks 3 days

Halfway done cooking this little one, crazy how fast time is going by. The 27th we have our big ultrasound, with any luck we will find out the gender! Dr. appt to follow right after. I had the plague (some sort of virus) for nearly 3 weeks... 3 horrible weeks. Still have a cough but feeling human! I was on Tamiflu, antiboics and a syrup. Had a bacterial infection in my lungs as well. Never wish to repeat that was the worst I have ever felt. Nothin else to really report until next week! I think it will be a surprise no matter what as I have no insight on boy or girl.... so we'll see!

made it to 16 weeks- yesterday!

I bought a fetal doppler online being we didnt get to hear hb at 12 week appt, arrived yesterday and was totally worth every penny!! Hubby got to hear "his son" lol (we dont know the sex but he insists boy, my daughter insists girl lol) for the 1st time last night. Totally cool! Next appt oct 9th will be almost 18 weeks. We should find out gender later in Oct with any luck. The puking finally slowed down its only random now. Thats about it for now.

Oh yes Im a slacker.

I have thought about updating a thousand times yet never make the time. That Wed apt went well U/S showed everything was normal and no reason for bleeding now. Baby was bouncing around saw and heard heartbeat. Had my 12 week apt. Everything seemed good didn't get to hear hb baby wasn't cooperating, doc said I can come back in couple weeks if I want to hear it. But we decided to just wait it out until our next apt. which will be Oct 9th- I will be nearly 18 weeks!! Cant believe how fast time is flying. The puking seems to be leveling off past couple days I am just hoping it continues to ease and disappear soon! I will schedule my c section at 30-32 weeks along. K is super excited we are having a "new baby" she insists its a girl, hope she is right for her sake lol she is pretty stuck on it even though I talk to her about a brother also. We should find out the sex end of Oct. That's all the news for now!

Doc appt and more

Had our 1st official appt on 8/7... met the doc, he is great we love him, relieved about that! His insurance wont allow him to do vbacs, so another c sections it will be. I'm OK with that if the end result is healthy baby. I am still on restrictions until this Wed ultrasound to make sure all is perfect and the fluid has resolved. Doc said he is pretty sure its all fine, then I will be off all restrictions YEAH!! He said I will have a c section at 39 weeks will make it the first week in March. I was offered weekly b12 injections for the puking that is getting worse and worse but declined and decided to wait it out another week or so. Est. due date is 3/15 for now, even though baby will come a week early. Well guess that's all for now! More on Wed!

Update: the past week events

So last Thursday woke up everything was as normal, went to go make K pancake as I was standing in front of the stove I felt a big gush. Sure enough it was blood, bright red and a lot of it. I thought the worst, but stayed calm as I have no control over what happens in the end anyway. I called my ob office whom told me to go to ER. Went to ER, bleeding had stopped, cervix was closed, blood work came back good solidly pregnant the RN said. Doc ordered an ultrasound but by that time it was past 5pm so they sent me home and had be go back Friday early for u/s. They found some blood in there, baby was measuring right on target with a nice heartbeat, nice and high in my uterus apparently the best place to implant. Went back to the ER doc whom told me bed rest for the next few days and said I had a subchrionic bleed near the placenta. Nonetheless went home rested next few days with no further bleeding only old brown. Now the brown is gone and all seems fine. Now I am just waiting for my OB appt Aug 7th a bot over a week away. Been knock on wood pretty uneventful since last week. Looking forward to seeing baby again.

6 weeks and can you say...

morning sickness?!?! Day 3 of morning sickness that is off and on all day, so far its manageable :) nothing toast doesn't fix for now too bad it took 2 days to figure this out) if it stays like this I can totally handle it! Today is exactly 6 weeks couple more weeks until my appt woohooo!! Not much else to say, I really didn't think I would start feeling sick this early! I am not complaining comes with the territory, and for that I am blessed.

Some more rambling :)

Rambling about something and nothing all at the same time- that's what I do best! 5 weeks 3 days pregnant today only 3 weeks until our appt. Yippee! Can't wait to share the news after that appt. I have this feeling we will have a boy, however had this same feeling when I was pregnant with K before we were told she was a she. We shall see!

1 in 17 chances of having twins being I am a fraternal twin myself. Never know. Lol funny thought.

On another note we have been busy painting the house. Its been getting hot out and I consistently remind myself not to over do it. The new color is really nice, coming along great only 1/4 way done though. 3000 sq ft is a whole lot of paint and house.

Lets see what else, oh in the process of downsizing my laying hens... and raising up new chicks for next spring. Had a horrible hatch rate this time very disappointed about it however am I really gonna have all this time on my hands next spring? Eh no. Probably not with a newborn and a 4 yr old :)

5 weeks!

Today I'm officially 5 weeks pregnant! Crazy! 3 1/2 weeks until my appt :) I simply cannot be more excited! I am so thankful I have no sickness, hoping it stays away from this pregnancy. Not a whole to say accept it has sunk in. We are gonna be parents of two come March. K is gonna be a big sis. I am so excited to tell her but waiting for a while before I do. Everything is going good. Decided to finally get the painting done on the outside of house which we have been putting off. Its a HUGE job a lot of paint and labor and only 3.25 people doing it if you count K LOL.... Will look great when its done for sure!

I just had to...

Decided since it had been several days since I tested, and my appt isn't for nearly a month I would poas again... talked myself out of the costly digital got Walmart brand instead. Lets just say within seconds the test line was wayyyyy darker then the control line LOL oh yeah very much pregnant :) made my evening even though I already knew this! I'm hoping for an ultrasound so I can see this baby asap on my 1st appt but being I am going to a new doc not sure of the standard routines. Hoping though :)

Had 2 EXTREMELY RARE light Sussex chicks hatch out past couple days.. I will post pics soon, they are adorable! More crested polish chicks due to hatch very soon! Looking to sell of my current laying hens before fall to lesson the load in preparation for next springs polish only flock.

Scheduled my first appt!!!

Yay! I called and got my first appt! She was going to schedule me for the 20th of July but I asked to be scheduled a bit further out so J could come with me :) so its officially Aug 7th! Day before my b day :) I will almost be 9 weeks then woohooo! One would think sooner was better and well for impatience yes that's true. However It was important to have Jeff there and by then we have a chance of hearing the heartbeat! Gosh I'm so excited!!! Finally on our way :)

A great day!

I have officially known for about 24 hours that I'm pregnant. I think it is the best feeling ever right now! I am thankful for every minute of it. Tested once more this morning to confirm what I know. Test is wayyyyy darker. Even darker then when I tested with K. I am still so amazed by it all right now. With any luck this will be my March baby :) the month of green. Not too long ago I thought it would be a couple years before this day came.... I just feel so blessed, cannot be more thankful then right now for this chance. I am thankful for the wonderful support people in my life, for my family and friends. I have had a wonderful day and tomorrow is only going to get better. I think Ill call my doc tomorrow and schedule an appt. :)

Well....

Something has been telling me to test since last Friday, however I decided not to because if it was neg it would of spoiled my weekend. So tonight I tested and you wouldn't believe it. BIG FAT POSITIVE without even holding it!! Can only imagine how dark it would be in the morning!! We did it again. I am pregnant! So far so good things are normal and no signs of starting! Looks like a March baby after all! We are thrilled to pieces. Told 2 people including my mom. Gonna wait a couple weeks to make a doc appt and go from there.... a great day today is! I will post a pic of digital at some point :) but here is a pic of the first one, no mistaking it :) eeeekkkkk!!!

13 dpo- 1 day or so until I test

I plan on testing tomorrow if AF is a no show! Not much to think about since there are no tests in the house hahahaha. Not funny really. Trip was great, lots of fun anf super fast. Loved every minute of it though. Got home 2am this morning 80 was stopped miles in traffic due to road construction- it was a mess! 4th was fun saw some family fun fireworks... just good times. Saw F and T Sunday... park was fun! Just a fun weekend! Even got in a visit to one of my fav stores in bewteen! Anyhow, more later!

1 week down, 1 to go...

It's officially a one week wait now :) not sure even where the past week has gone! We'll be driving to CA Friday, packing on Thursday. Im plan on testing Tuesday if AF doesnt show up. WOOHOO!! OMG I ate the grossest food ever tonight... won't even go into what it was ugh ugh ugh blaaaaaa!!! Makes me sick thinking about it

Ok...

So waking up,.... well not even sure I completely fell asleep.... 4 times in one night sucks! Not sure what it is but I know this is exactly why Im so tired during the day. Today is 5 dpo/6dpo. Nothing to really say except waiting. Really looking forward to next weekend though! Fun stuff.

Already seems like ages ago...

Box was shipped back yesterday yet it feels like weeks ago. Been completely distracts past couple days. I ho[e it stays that way for another couple weeks :) got a lot to look forward to. Planned a spur of the moment- well kinda- trip to Sacramento for the 4th of July... we are nuts really driving, 3 adults, a 3 year old, 9 hours each way, a 4Th of July party in which all the family will be there.... all in 2 days INCLUDING drive time hahaha. Yeah so worth it though! I cannot wait to see my family some of them its been a couple years, they will be surprised for sure. I cannot wait to see my big sis ;) on Sunday before we leave town. Kaylie is so very excited to go swimming. a bit over a week to go. I love these trips. I wish it were longer but we are going back end of Oct for a longer visit. House sitter is in place (a pretty big deal with the herd we have, which is still only a fraction of what we used to :) )

I feel great. 1dpo today! Couple weeks until I get my + again (being optimistic lol). Which will be just after we return from our trip. Exciting stuff!! I can't wait :)

Got a new rooster last night! Goodbye old crank asswhole rooster- no more getting spurred!! He is beautiful. Just a youngen but will grow to be man of the coop!

Officially in the two week wait... oh fun!

Swimmers are on their way to where they need to be :) Box goes back this morning! All so fast. So thrilled to be in the wait again, I almost can't believe it. Now we get to wait the wonderful two weeks to find out of they did the job this month :) Timing was perfect as was it all, now its up to mother nature for this one! That's all for now!

FINALLY!!! YEAH!!!

9am Smiley woooohooooo!!! I know I surged in the middle of the night. Plan is to cancel some plans for this evening, insem then and again in the morning. This is sooo exciting!!! No words really define the excitement well. I should be ovulating from the same side as our + month, using double count swim team. SO READY! I love when things work out perfectly. I have so much positive energy going into this its crazy. It will be a long day waiting for bugs bedtime tonight :) but with lots to do around here today it will be fine. Mondays always seem to be busy busy with house chores. I got a smiley woohoo... boy does that sound like I'm 3 again or what?! Ya smiley!!

Swim team is here!!

OMG FINALLY!!!! Box arrived this afternoon. sooo exciting its not funny! I got a little laugh today.... I opened the box as usual my tank # is 69 hahahaha appropriate LOL. Now come on smiley :)... should see you Monday! I am doing the happy dance. FINALLY!

Few pictures

Just thought I would post a few pix.

Yipee! Yay swim team

My swim team are on there way. Got the FedEx tracking email today. I'm trilled to pieces! I cannot believe well I can but yeah... that I am going to actually be in the tww this time next week. I start smileys tomorrow, swimmers on Friday. Green is my fav how cool would a st Patty's baby be? Perfect! I can't believe it... this will be month #4 ttc. Mo #1 and #2 was a dud donor. Mo #3 ended up + only to have that end all too soon- but first mo of new donor :). This month will be second try with new donor, so excited! Things are going smoothly as can be. I feel like I'm a kid getting ready to go to Disney LOL. I'm standing in line waiting for my turn in the front row of the roller coaster ride.

Over flowing with excitement!!!

I just can't wait until Friday when my swimmers arrive safe and sound!!! I am just so excited! I know they will do their jobs.... I am soooo ready for this month! Will start smileys on Thursday or Friday. But will most likely not see one until Monday. This time it is all so very different, after seeing a + I'm more excited then ever to get the ball rolling! I will be keeping busy this week with other stuff but come Friday wooohooooo!!! Its gonna happen. We are going to have our March baby :) I just feel it!

A little frustrated

A little bit ago I get a call from the doctors office, confirming my 1st prenatal appt for Monday. I said ummm blood work came back Negative?!? She said oh Im sorry they didn't tell me. I said so I wont be needing this appt I figured it would of been canceled after blood work. I kinda feel like the whole situation was rubbed in more. I would rather not think about the what if's. I want to focus on this cycle.

I called and set up my delivery date for my swim team for next week. Things fell right into place. Quarantine was partially released. I was able to get exactly what I needed for this cycle being J will only be home for 1 insem. It was perfect! A little diff then last cycle but I think an improvement! Very excited to have next week here! :)

EDITED TO ADD: That women called for a total of 3 times today not realizing she had already talked to me? still wanting to remind me of my appt. She apologized by saying I'm not normally this ditsy. Great. I have faith in docs here... can you tell? Ok come on box!

thoughts before bed

I have been doing a whole lot of ebay listing today.... its been a long day lol but much needed. This evening while I was sorting out baby and adult clothing and preparing to list, my mom walked by and said Im suprised you are not keeping that (it was a cute baby boy outfit) and I looked at her confused for a second. I said why? then she looked at my confused lol. I dont know if we will have a boy or girl so I am not hoarding clothing that I may not end up using. She kinda laughed and said so save one of each then. Women what are you thinking?? one of each? I said I hope you are emplying keep both and get rid of which you dont end up needing, and not that I need boy and girl clothing. She laughed again (I am a twin) yes thats what I mean. I have told myself a 1,000 times no don't buy or save clothing for baby to be... just wait. Now my mom who hasn't been 100% open minded is telling me to start collecting. Guest you would have to know her to get the whole picture. Little does she know what I do already have :)... gosh I hate wishy washy! If you are going to be supportive then great stay that way if not then keep your mouth quiet. Nonetheless things continue as planned.... looking forward to next week when swim team arrives..... yeah! ANNNNDDDD Its just about summer now, perfect time to have a swim team swim! Yes Im a dork.... why am I not in bed again??? This is why I am not a morning person! Im sooo great at rambling for myself hehehe... heck dont even think I will spell check this tonight

Fun stuff for the week :)

AF arrived on Monday, an entire week early. But with the whacky hormones left over from the previous try and all that, I really was happy to comply lol. I will be calling today to set up shipping date for my swimmers to arrive next Friday!! Crazy already! I am so very very excited to move forward and feel so positive about this month. I cannot wait to see another +!!

On another note- yesterday the cutest chicks hatched! They are some fancys this time that I will be raising for my own flock! They are silver laced polish crested chicks with the frizzle (curly feathered) genes... it will be a bit before we know if they will show the curly or not. I am over the moon about them! The last of the ducklings go home next week. I am keeping the crested duck that hatched the same day as our last last insems.... its my lucky duck even if last time didn't work out, this time it will! Come on March baby (wow seems like just yesterday I was trying for another Oct baby :) goes to show you mother nature has her own plans!

Well on to month #4

Lab results confirmed part of what I knew. Its negative meaning the level came back at 1 (anything less then 5 is negative) I had prepared myself for this, I just knew it wasn't gonna work out. It was a chemical pregnancy. I was told 60% of pregnancies end this way and most women never even know. I wouldn't of if I didn't test a week after period SHOWED. If feel it was meant to be seen. I have more hope now then ever that this is going to work eventually. What a relief its not ectopic or worse. However although I never allowed myself to get excited over being pregnant, I do feel bummed that this month wasn't my time. I ended up taking a month off figuring all this out, and now ready to move onto the next cycle. I am thankful for everything I have. Things play out the way they are meant to be. month #3 wasn't one of them. I will move forward as planned will more hope then ever that soon I will be pregnant with a viable pregnancy.

Just in case you didn't know I love waiting

I am suppose to hear back on lab results... well not the entire picture but part of it anyway. To be honest not sure I want to hear back. I have only allowed myself to get excited over the fact swimmers did there job, I refused from the moment I took a + test to get excited over being pregnant. I gotta admit, sitting in the waiting room sucked. Surrounded by all these beautiful huge pregnant women was a downer. While sitting and waiting for the little old women who came in for blood work to the wrong place to get done, the tv ran an informative dvd.... they were talking about infertility, using donor sperm etc. It was entertaining however I would much rather be one of those women that were huge pregnant (I know I'm going to get more then I ask for, and regret saying that one day lol) The lab tech who was very knowledgeable and so kind, asked me if I was pregnant. I simply replied well whats your sheet say this test is for? I kinda laughed annoyed at the question, she then asked well do you feel pregnant? Again being annoyed chuckled. I want things simple please. If I am carrying a viable pregnancy wonderful! If not, I would like to keep moving forward. I want answers. I'm tired of waiting. I am hoping for this HUGE beta result or zero... mother nature please don't give me anything between. Please.....

Bloodwork and more bloodwork

Last round of bloodwork is Friday morning, should know more then. They are testing my betas.... to be sure the number increases like it should. And will go from there. This morning I spilled the beans to my mom as she started to walk out the door for work, because Jeff had told her I had a doc appt! That was interesting. She said you didnt tell, I didnt know you were trying, I said becuase I didnt want to get yelled at... I know you havent always said the most supportive comments to me about this. She denied and that of course. She said a few reassuring words and Im sure she will have more to say after work. I think she realised if she didnt have something suppotive to say dont say anything. Im sure she was bothered by the fact I never told her we were trying. She doesnt know details and never will LOL. But now the cat is out of the bag. I am relieved to say the least even if she does suport us she isnt going to say anything negative.

Things got moved up

After some spotting (remember I did have a period this month!) I called the docter who asked me to come in right away for bloodwork- then 2 days later for a repeat. Not much was said over the phone. I know one of the things they are checking for is hormone levels rising. I should know more by Friday. If things dont work out we will just move on, if they do then even better! I only have 1 fear right now which I wont mention as I dont want to jinx it. But as long as I am ok... everything will be fine. Ill update when I know more.

Some randomness (and not so random)

Well my chick lady came by and took all but one of the chicks (I refused to sell the blue)..... I'm gonna hatch some of her eggs for her being all of her eggs are dying. I didnt want to be rude but Im pretty sure its her incubator settings 103 will fry them. I think she got the hint. Still waiting for my polish frizzles to hatch. And still have a few ducks left to sell, after that only chicks Ill have are the ones that Ill be adding to my flock.

Its been getting warm past few days well into the 90's.... I swear we didnt have a spring LOL. Boy K is at this age getting into EVERYTHING! Cabinets, pantry, fridge freezer, omg she just grabbed a pie out of the freezer sat down and started eating it. She is 3 lol... and has a mind if her own for sure. Im hoping to get her into preschool this fall. She adores most other kids, im sure al kids do. When chick lady came by with her daughters, K cried when they left :( I hate when she cries over things like that. I often feel I am letting her down being an only child. Hopefully that is changing soon! That brings me to all the recent craziness. Please keep in mind when I talk or typr rather, in circles its not for anyone enjoyment (or annoyment lol that a word?)... just my way of sorting my thoughts.

Is it the 15th yet? Oh wait crap its not even the 1st! UGH! I miss my doctors in CA, if I were there things would be a whole lot easier not to mention a better insurance plan. Hey at least we have coverage even is its a crappy expensive ppo that will cost us $9000+. I cant say I care about all that LOL its something we have known about since we moved here and are prepared for. I have completed all my new patient forms and submitted them to my new doc online. I think a main reason this all drives me nuts, is the fact that we have only told a couple close people we are pregnant... not being able to talk about it sucks. Love my blogspot lol Hmmm.... lets see what else....

Oh I must say how nice it has been past couple days without my mom and her annoying dog here!!! So much more relaxing. I don't plan on tell her anytime soon heck she doesn't even know we are trying or how or any of that. How sad is that? Much better this way. Trust me. Only positive support people know anything its for the best right now.

I think I just must of been born without patience!!

I'm trying not to go mad!! Insane whatever.... I have over 2 weeks until my appt.... OMG this sucks! I just want to know that bean is there, in the right place and all is good. I tend to try to justify EVERYTHING- if its not logical its hard to grasp LOL- I freaking bled for 4 days just about a normal period!! How in the world can I actually be pregnant?? I want to be. I want to believe it... I mean damn the word YES+ is still glaring my in the face and for some reason I still cant swallow it! I have been told or heard of every story out there of women who had a period through the entire pregnancy yadda yadda yadda..... how does this happen?? I feel horrible when hubby comes home SOOOO EXCITED and I cant go there with him. Oh the wait. Everything is probably just fine I know, after all to get a + I have to have pregnancy hormone in my system. I have wanted to see those words on a test for sooo long, for the digital to read YES+. Now that I have that I don't believe it. This is a major case of DENIAL. Maybe a defense mechanism. There have been so many months in the past couple years I could swear I was pregnant... little did I know we had no sperm to work with. I never thought this part of the game would be such a struggle! It will be fine, venting here is a way to get it out and not let it stress me, stress is not good for me I know, or baby to be... god that's hard to even type. Talk about a roller coaster. Why does my appt have to be at 8 freaking weeks?? AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!. Ok I'm done for the moment.... we are soooo close to our goal.

Wow... ok

So I stopped my shipment just in time before it left :) Swim team will not be arriving this month AH HAHAHAHA how freakin nuts is all this? I made my first doc appt for June 15Th, the soonest they had available. I expressed my concerns and was told having a period the first month is actually pretty common!! It was no concern, and she said they have clients that have what seems to be a period the entire pregnancy! Wowzers that would drive me nuts! Anyhow all that's done now... just gonna take it easy and wait until the 15Th rolls around. I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS!!! OMG who would of thought! So after the 15Th I will allow myself to be excited, however I already am just for the fact that this process works!! My gut told me when I started to sit this month out, I should of listened hahahaha its all good, HEY! I'm sitting the month out hahahaha..... wow... OK better stop now or Ill keep repeating myself over and over and over! This is so crazy!

UMMM.... YEAH... WTF??? OMG

Speechless right now...

UPDATE: Ok heres how we got here lol..... AF showed right on time for 4 days. Try #3 and we were out (or so I thought) this week I was to start opk's box will be here Friday for try 4. I took the opk and it was nearly + a week early, I though what in the world? Not sure what prompted me but I grabbed a hpt and it was freaking +!!! How? No clue! AF showed remember? I'm now on the hunt for a new obgyn and will get excited after a doc appt. Im in shock... hardly slept a wink bewteen this and K getting up. All 5 tests are + and even darker today. So wierd.

Hatching season is coming to a close

Fertility in my birds have been tested and are obviously great (hence all the baby pix this month) these are some of the last chicks that I Will hatch this season from my own birds. Today a beautiful blue Americana chick hatched.... next babies that I will post will hopefully be of some fancy frizzled crested polish chicks if they hatch in a few weeks :) hoping to add some more rare breeds to my flock by fall!

The funk.... of sorts

Yesterday I woke up, just wasn't feeling good... not so much physically but mentally drained and kinda depressed. Woke in a much better place this morning thank goodness! I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and have come to the conclusion change will happen. There are aspects of my life right now I wish to change, to do differently. I am so blessed to be able to work part time from home, stay home and care for K too... however I am starting to fill like that's my only choice. Don't get me wrong I love it and that's what I want to be is a stay at home mom, just want to not be tied down physically. Today I have stupid STUPID stuffs to sort out with NW, they have made a HUGE error and now threatening to destroy! I'm sure it will be fine and get sorted out but still stresses me out big time, the one weekend I wish wasn't a 3 day one... long ass waiting isn't for me. Anyway so now that today I'm not sunken into some stupid funk, I need to take care of lots of business.... kinda excited swimmers will be here Friday.. not a whole lot of hope with using 1 vial but hey it was that or sit out. More excited to have the house to ourselves again as M will be gone for the weekend in Ca for a cousins wedding. Looking forward to the quiet time, its been soooooooooooooooooo long. Anyway K is awake, boy she slept in, wish I did! Well that's all for now....

On to try #4 dun dun dun....

Today is Cycle day 5, swimmers to arrive a week from Friday for try #4. So that's that. Have thought about a break for summer, just not sure yet. Time will tell what we decide. Still feeling positive and just waiting for our turn for it to work! I'm happy we finally have nice warm weather. Been enjoying the outdoors and having a good time with Apple blossom festival last weekend.

Look who arrived on Mother's Day!

These little ones hatched out Mothers day morning... they are adorable and 100% siblings to the lil fellow pictured below.... none of them are crested Pekins. So far only the one lucky older duckling is :) They are a rowdy group for sure. Some new chicks hatched too!

A week left

One week of the two week wait is already over! Yay! Another 7-8 days to go! This week went smoothly I feel positive even though I felt no different all other months :) Come on Baby! Lets get this rolling already! I know this week will be a lot harder to wait out then last... I can do it!

Crazy weather, Tornado warnings and funnel cloud fun!

So on Sunday I was shopping in the fabric store in the nearby town about 5 mi away from my home. We went to check out and was warned over the P.A that a storm was about to hit and to sit tight... we all giggled in excitement, no clue just thinking it was another good thunder storm. Then an employee says they have been watching the storm swirl. Right then it hailed over an inch in less then a minute as they announce tornado warning for our town and the neighboring town... it seemed to pass (well kinda) and we went out the car and drove home in some crazy crazy weather. Got home is was crazier, the wind was insane all the trees were damaged, gumball sized hail covered everything, power was out. It was awesome! Mother nature is not a force to be messed with. Sunday was a crazy day.

Let the Two week wait begin!

Tomorrow officially starts my two week wait!!! I cant wait to get my +!!! 2 insems down..... did a lot of new this cycle including new donor. I feel wonderful! Third time IS a charm!! Now only 2 more weeks.... YEAH!!!

Whats better then a Rainbow AND a Smiley???

Hatching ducklings..... after our first insemination, I woke up to the first duck egg hatching out!! They say eggs are a sign of fertility. Hey I'll take what I can get :)

This little one hardly sits still enough to get a picture! It's special... a crested Pekin duck (the parents arent crested so this was a surprise!)

A great day!

A stunning rainbow then my smiley! A great day.....

Come on SMILEY :)

Well my box arrived on time, Thursday. After I huge mix up and confusion.... everything got sorted out. Hey at least they sent the right vials LOL even though all paperwork stated different. Remembering back a week and half ago I know how it all happened. Anyhow its all good. I am SOOOO CLOSE to a smiley I cannot believe it! This is a HUGE month :) I am hoping to get a Smiley by this evening but we'll see. It will come when its time. I feel so great, so positive, so hopeful. 3rd time is a charm :)... hope to post about a smiley next! Yay me!!

Yay It's MONDAY!

The box will ship out tomorrow!! WOOOHOOO Thursday everything will arrive. I am so excited to try this month!! I start poas tomorrow..... I have hope high hope right now, and if not this month the next! Please keep your fingers crossed, I would love for 3rd time to be a charm!! This is the big week :)

In the waiting again...

Everything has arrived for this month except swim team which will be here on Thursday! I should ovulate sometime over the weekend. I am getting more and more excited all these new changes may be exactly what we need! I rearranged the house omg did I ever LOL but change was needed at home too. Something more refreshing. Less then a week and we should be in the two week wait again. For the third time. Please let the third time be the charm!! I have more then ever now that I great friend found out she is gonna be a mommy, using donor sperm as well! Before this I just wasn't sure how well or if this process even works. I mean at home insemination's- seriously mail order sperm, how do I know whats really in the vials? What about counts?? Yes we are using a well known bank who guarantees counts and such but still. This month I requested to see the sperm count info on our donor. This is the first month using this donor... so many firsts this month :). I have high hopes of great counts. We'll see on Thursdays once they arrive! Please please please fingers and toes crossed!! I want so badly to be able to tell K she is gonna have a brother or sister... she asks me all the time to have a brother and sister. She will be over the moon even if she doesn't get how it works. These things come up whenever she sees others with friends, or siblings... and each time we go to Costco they have huge couple seat carts. Every time she says mommy I need a sister to sit next to me lol and every time I tell her I'm sorry we are working on that and grandma isn't with us today to sit next to you (an inside joke with gram acts like a 3 year old) I'm sure I'll post once my box arrives on Thursday!!

TWO week wait ended EARLY

Onto try #3... they 3rd time is the charm. Out of try #1 and #2 this was the hardest to swallow, hope just wasn't enough. After a day of sulking, I picked myself back up and will continue to move forward!! LOTS of changes for #3. First off we will be using a new donor, 2 vials iui format. I traded the vials I had in storage in for a new swim team :) in hopes that it will make the difference. Swim team arrives next Thursday. I am ready more so then ever! I bought all my supplies for this month and plan to start putting more swimmers into storage soon as well. Everything has worked out perfectly thus far. COME ON JANUARY BABY!!! New donor, new technique, new years baby.... fingers crossed!!

Oh how I love the sun

It is absolutely gorgeous out today. First time this year in fact that we going to reach beyond mid 60's! I decided to take advantage of the day but taking a few pictures of Kaylie to send out on Easter. With the rainbow of color- of eggs my pet chickens lay and some adorable chicks (white silkies), they turned out really cute!

I'm in the two week wait FINALLY!!!

I have chosen to shorten the who what when where and how's for now :) Timing was great, as was the rest. I feel wonderful about this month. Two weeks and we will know. I have this sudden thought "don't stock up" anymore swimmers in storage. No clue why but going with it, I will not be buying anymore vials for storage for now, I already have some in there. YEAH!! Swim team! go go go! I plan on sitting back and enjoying this next 2 weeks.... nothing more to say really :) for now anyway-

Now come on Smiley!

I am hoping to see a Smiley tomorrow!! Woooohooooo!

On a side note. I have recently learned how beneficial for myself it is to take deep breathes. Taking deep breathes does so much for helping me relax and stay centered. When things get stressful or what not I have made a consistant effort to breathe and it cannot be a better feeling. It really works!!! Wipes all the tension away almost instantly.

Now if I can only get a smiley :) Im good to go!

SWIM TEAM ARRIVED!!!

After all this time sitting out, they're here WOOOOHOOOO! I should get a positive test on Thursday! I am sooo excited.... swimmers x3!!! YEAH!!!

Just because... rambling does wonderful things for me

Today I got out of bed, drove an hour to a house to pick up some laying hens to add to my already beautiful flock of birds. I thought I was getting a couple we turns out there were 10 and 2 roosters. I picked 6 hens and a turken rooster. Turkens are awesome you either love em or hate em I love em :) So very excited about the new arrivals! Already got eggs from them! K got to bottle feed a baby goat it was adorable I hope to post pics soon. She loved them hey she is her mothers daughter after all. Today is Monday and I didn't get to test at 2pm with opk, tested this evening negative which what I had planned being swim team will be here TOMORROW!! YEAH!!! Lots of company and things planned this week but all comes second to my swimmers. I should get a + ovulation test on Thursday. I can't wait. I am excited. VERY much so. I am exhausted after all day out with the farm animals and chasing K around. Took a nice warm bath in the dark minus the candles. It works wonders I am relaxed and ready for bed. Gotta be rested for my swim teams arrival! Come on mother nature lets work together :) I want my Christmas baby.. boy what a wonderful gift ever, one of the best it would be!

Earth hour

Well tonight 830-930pm local time we participated in earth hour... Got the bug in bed and turned off all electrical in the house except bugs night light of course. Jeff and I looked stupid at each other for a couple seconds in the dark then flew around the radio control helicopter. Yes in the dark lol. We then tried to scare one another, that got old fast. So we decided to take a walk to the gas station as Jeff wanted a beer. It was so quiet out (small town usual) only noise is Main st where all the local bars are. While walking we got to see the neighborhood screech owls teach there baby how to fly and hunt, it was so cute... the baby cried the entire time. On the way back home as we stepped out to walk past an alley, came a truck FLYING towards us so we backed up and waited for him to pass up. The truck stopped we crossed in front of it as we walked past then older man stuck his head drunk as can be laughing tell us no worries he wouldn't of hit us been in trouble for that once before and never again... it was really funny but man he was soooo drunk only wish he was that funny on his feet not behind the wheel of a truck. I was trying to figure out if he has hit someone before or if he was implying something else or maybe he had no clue what he was saying LOL. Got home just has earth hour had ended. Walk was nice though. I think there should be more organized earth hours throughout the year.

Cycle day 10

And I am so ready for this coming week :) I start testing tomorrow with opk's for my surge!! I should get a positive on Thursday-ish and will inseminate at 12, 24 and 36 hours past it. Yeah!!! Only a few more days and whats even cooler is I actually have a cycle buddy this time around who should be inseminating on close to if not on the same day!! I cannot wait to be in the two week wait again! I am putting all my positive energy towards this.... it will happen very soon! Swimmers will be here Tuesday!

Thoughts for the night...

I love when I am this excited about something, I love how I feel. I love the positive energy. Bottom line is no matter the end result this month, even if I don't achieve my goal this round.... it's all good. We will get there. I feel so blessed to be able to try. I am thrilled to pieces my body is where it should be. Right now I just sit in contentment. I certainly hope next week goes well and everything goes as it should. I'm sure it will. AF has left... I never once complained :) Swimmers will be here in about a week. A short couple days later we should be in the wonderful two week wait! I know I say the same things a lot, its just whats on my mind at the time.... I had a perfect day today with the hubby and bug. Lots of park play, and bike ride (which ended in a flat tired for me a mile from home LOL, but it was still fun just got a little more of a well needed workout then planned), just a good day lots of quality time.

Come on swimmers!!! Come on swim team!

Swimmers will be here 3/31 YEAH!!! Looking at 4/2 insemination date... 3 vials. I cannot believe I'm going to try again after what felt like forever of a break :) I am on cloud 9 or 10 or 11 or 100.. whatever cloud. Attempt #2 is fast approaching! I cannot even imagine how excited I will be once I get that + pregnancy test... especially if I'm already this excited about even being able to try :) again..... A certain little girl would love a sibling! She asked just the other day " Mommy can I have a brother or sister?, Can we make one?" I laughed and said well no WE can't "make" one, but hopefully soon! She is just so darn cute!

TODAY IS CYCLE DAY 1 WOOOOHOOOO!!!!

Cycle day 1, cycle day 1 lalalalala...... 2 months out and I'm back in the darn game YIPEEE!!! Today has to be one the best days in a long time, what a relief! I did O when I was in CA! I just knew it! Now I get to pay the price of no AF for 2 months LOL oh well you wont find this women complaining! I ordered 2 more vials and placed them in storage, now I need to call NW back tomorrow with a shipment date :) now I get to decide which donor I want shipped to me this month hehehehe I actually was able to purchase 2 vials of a donor I loved but wasn't available, once he was, he sold out soo fast! When I ordered there were less then a handful left (lucky me got in!) I AM SO READY TO BE PREGNANT AGAIN :) THANK YOU MOTHER NATURE FOR THE 2 MONTH BREAK BUT NO MORE FOR A WHILE PLEASE!

It appears I was right!

Period is on her way! Having started spotting, tomorrow should be CD1. I cannot even begin to express how excited this makes me. I will be calling NW today to order more vials for storage. Not sure which donor Ill choose for this try maybe same maybe a new one. Doesn't even matter right now. I haven't bled since Late Jan! 2 months out sucked! But I'm back and cant be happier :). The big day IF all stays on track, should be about 14-16 days from today yes only a couple short weeks OMG! Yeah! It's my turn now :) I have learned to be patient with this 2 cycle off stuff don't expect me to stay that way now hahahaha. We'll see.

An update :)

I have been home for nearly a week now from our trip. We had a great time overall! Good times! Been visiting with my brother who drove back with us for a week stay.

On the ttc home front: While on vacation (no opks) I am 98% sure I ovulated on the day I should of if last cycle wasn't wonky! Which means it was an annovulatory cycle last month. And had to skip this month due to not knowing when I was due to ovulate (1st time in my life!) Break has been good on so many levels, great reflection on things. So if I am correct on this AF should be here in about a week approx the 21st! I cannot wait getting more and more excited to try again! Last AF was Jan 24 LOL nice long break eh? I have been purchasing vials all this time and putting them into storage with NW. So have a small stash which is good being our "ideal" donor is nearly out for good!! Next order will be with another donor, hopefully next one will be out of quarantine SOON! I have learned to be patient about this wait (like I have a choice) had a nice trip and now am ready to go forth full force ASAP!! Feel really positive even though af hasn't showed yet... she is lurking I just know it.

Hmmmm....

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH AAAAHHHHHHHHHH AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Ok I wanna be gone CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT!!!!! Ok going to bed to pass the time... READY TO GO ON VACATION...... Gosh by the way Im so excited you would like Im going to wonderful beautiful hot vacation huh? LOL Nope! Going back to the town I spent 24 years of my life in. Its not the town thats exciting it the people in it mainly. Its the thought of breaking out of this little town for a mini break :) trust me a mini break is all it takes for me to miss home! This is my last rant, ramble whatever you wanna call it until until we get back from CA.... I CANT WAIT! A year is way to long of time to not see people you love.. makes it just that more exciting!

Why do I need a title??

5 more days (we moved it up) and I will on vacation..... out of town. Spring fever? Maybe. Early Wednesday morning we will be packing our 4 bodies (3 human and 1 dog) into the car for the 10 hour or so drive. I'm ready for some sunshine (one day the rain will stop in Sac lol) I got a few places I must shop and people to see. I so badly want sushi! BAD! (K is currently trying to slide toddler ski boots onto my feets, wonder why they don't fit K?) She is getting very excited to go... has as sticker countdown chart and knows when all stickers are filled we leave. I implemented this so I didn't have to hear "Can we go to CA now?" did it work... NO! Although she reminds me first thing each morning to give her a sticker, she still asks. Wonder where she got the lack of patience from? Um Jeff... yeah uh huh. LOL With plane tix soooo cheap ($61) I should of flew out early lol... shoulda coulda woulda... maybe next time. I was so tempted to book a Mexico cruise for Jan 2010... $144 a person for 5 nights...but I held off I hope to either be pregnant or have a newborn by then :) not gonna work in my plans. Its funny K is finally at the age where she watching commercials and wants what she sees..... TV is evil. That's about it.....

1 more week until our trip

One more week until our trip to CA yeah! Looking forward to getting out of town for a bit and see some much missed peoples. It will be fun. K is already so excited although I try not to talk about it to her because she wants to leave NOW this second and starts whining about it. She has a sticker chart and understand once all the stickers are filled we get to start driving. We are bringing my brother back with us too, but didn't tell my mom so it will be a bit of a surprise. Still up in the air if Brinkley will be coming just not sure yet. He is such a great traveler and loves to go but I need to be sure he is safe on the days when we are in town and her cannot be with us. I cleaned out the chicken coop yesterday spring cleaning I guess you can say without the spring lol. I ant stand to leave my house dirt that would mean coming home to a dirty house and its stressful enough returning and making sure everyone gets what they need. My mom will be house sitting/ pet sitting.

K had her doc appt Monday at almost 3.5 years old she is 32 pounds (with clothing and jacket tho) and 39" tall! Which simply means she went from below 3% to 50% on weight. Even her doc was happy and shocked she caught back up. Its very exciting to me, we know she is healthy and boy is she growing! She passed all of her motor skill and developmental tests with flying colors. Her hernia is completely closed now, she is great! She loved going to the docs and even cried when she had to leave, the doc was shocked. I think the foundation for a positive experience begins at home before hand with preparation. No immunizations until next year at 4.5 wow!

Things are going good for the most part. Health insurance changes happening next week will make for a more expensive maternity and post partum care.... by thousands. But we have insurance and thats whats important. If we don't get pregnant and give birth within a calender year we pay double. But there is no time limit, we will do whatever we need to. It would be wonderful if next cycle (if I ever get to next cycle!) worked. Just a waiting to bleed.... well not waiting really because it will happen when is the real question lol.

Random thoughts... bitching rather

With no surge when in the heck do I expect a period??? grrrrr I feel so cheated out of a cycle.. I want next cycle to be here already! I'm tired of cleaning the house I vacuumed the house 3 times today I swear the minute I cleaned it more toys took over it was a battle of wills today. I wish I were in CA already. I wish it were Friday the 6th already. I have so much to do still to prepare my pets and all for us leaving. I wanna sleep in. Cant wait for Monday for K's check up. Its so nice to have all the bills paid and have extra money after lol. I have so much to look forward too. Plane tickets are ridiculously cheap right now one way tix from sac to boi is $61 crazy! We might Matt nap my brother for the ride back home for a week. Some warmer weather would be wonderful. My legs have never been so white in my life. I don't like Spongebobsquarepants. He says stupid and butt. Wonder where the mt lion is currently. I'm eating chicken for dinnner, i think. I wanna go to the ocean. OK I guess I'm done with my bitch fest for now. WAAAAA cry me a river right?

Fortune cookie

Tonight my cookies reads: " dont give up. your problem gets better next month." YEAH!!!! Sounds perfect to me lol

here kitty kitty

We live in a town just a mile from a river, a block from main st, and a mere couple miles from farm land. There is a mountain lion in town. I'm sure he is looking for food, has killed 1 dog already... 2 blocks away. I guess no need to say my pups wont be outside for while unattended. They are obviously warning people to keep a close eye on there children too. Nopes no outside playing until they get him out of town and back to the river lol. They are beautiful animals but not one I wanna see in my yard gnawing on one of my pups! 2 blocks away (very small blocks) We be interesting to see how this unfolds I sure hope they don't end up shooting it. We have wildlife everywhere and its not unheard of to see but they don't usually end up in the middle of town LOL

Update and more

So the tank is on its way back to NW with my vials included for use next month! Just waiting for next cycle to start. Oh the joys of trying to conceive. It the meantime I will have a nice vacation out of town, out of state for a few days and visit some very missed people and eat good food well sushi at least lol. I cant wait for another 2 weeks to be here! The car is cleaned out and waiting to be packed just before we leave. List are complete... yes lists. I am an over planner when it comes to these trips.. traveling with a young en always causes something to be forgotten no matter what lol no matter the planning. I just don't go to other peoples homes and not bring everything I need. Glad I have this trip to focus on. It will b fun, K is so much easier to travel with these days.

K has a doc appt next Monday... 3 year well visit is a little late lol but I will only take her to see a certain pediatrician and she is the best, always booked out months so waiting a bit isn't any biggie. I'm guessing she finally hit 30 pounds! Maybe 32? Cant wait to find out. Could she finally be higher then 3% in her weight? lol maybe.

Changed mind AGAIN LOL

I'm gonna keep the tank until Monday at the latest, when I o late its always exactly 1 week (not sure why) so that's this Fri sat sun approx.... if I don't get a + then Ill simply send it all back on Monday :) So that's that, not even worrying about it now...


On another note we'll be visiting Ca in 3 weeks yipeeee. I cant wait. I got lots I wanna do and people to see! We aren't tell immediate family we are coming, easier that way the trip isn't planned for us and no tug of war involved! Just the 3 of us it will be fun oh and Brinkley too! Yeah! Cant wait.... we tend to plan our trips on a spur of a moment lol 3 weeks is longer then normal really. OK that all for now :)

I have made a decision I think

If I dont dont get a + opk by thursday afternoon I am sending the vials/dewar back and try again next month and will just be out the $130 shipping. The dewar is due to be shipped back On Thursday. If I get a positive on Thursday I will keep it an extra day and send it back on Friday. I am hoping and hoping I get a + soon. Please mother nature... work with my body please please please! Not sure whats up and why the late ovulation this cycle so odd. Maybe its a sign this month isnt meant to be. Im trying to stay positive but out of all the thing waiting I didnt ever think I would be waiting to ovulate. It is what it is. Im not stressed over it, Im more disappointed. Nothing I can do can change it but wait and see what mother nature has in store.....

No sure what to call this post

I need to vent for a moment:

I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING BIRTH CONTROL COMMERCIALS!!
I AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR + OPK- I FREAKING DESERVE A + ALREADY!
I AM READY TO TALK TO MY BODY NOT A FREAKING BOX IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM!

I have been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster tonight. I can only take for many neg opk's in a day. I thought for sure I would get + by now. Goes to show you. Nothing is predictable. I have had discouraging thoughts, and talked to someone very important to me had good laughs.... I just wanna cry now. Maybe I'm just tired. I had a great day today. Once I get that + everything will seems so much better. I try to relax and not think about it..... cant help it. I'm more frustrated then anything right now. I need to change my mind set not sure I can do that tonight. I need to go to bed and wake up refreshed tomorrow for a new day. Why does life have so many waiting aspects?? I know all of this ups and downs is part my journey, our journey and will be well worth it in the end... up until today there hasn't been too much ups and downs this cycle I have felt really good. Maybe feeling this emotional means ovulation is approaching hmmm yeah I think Ill go with that for now.... Everything is ready for the green light to go... it feels like I'm sitting in a traffic jam about 30 cars back right now... I need to learn to be patient how does one learn this? I have been reminding myself along with help from others to breathe..... soon the swim team will be striving for the gold metal... it will be here before I know it. Please + come soon... tired of reminding myself of things!! Off to bed.

Opk is getting darker!

Getting closer to our positive ovulation test...... matter of time... i bet today or tonight tomorrow by noon for sure. I am thinking today so far we shall see. I know I say that a lot. We shall see.

Why does my 3 year daughter have an obsession with spider man?? I am burnt out of spider man the movie.. spider man v smile game... spider man everything! Hope this phase ends soon lol She even has a stuffed spider man she sleeps with. Weird obsession not even sure where it started lol. We are working hard to get her sleep in her bed all night without getting up and waking us (its now a habit).. she used to be such a great sleeper. Now using a sticker chart so every night when she sleeps all night in the morning she gets to choose a sticker for her chart. When she gets to 7 stickers she gets to go to the zoo and see the new zebra there. She is very excited about this of course! We plan on getting an annual pass for the zoo soon, we go there enough lol. Last night she got up but stayed in her bed after I put her back so she got a sticker for at least staying after she woke up but it didn't go on her chart just a personal reward because I think its still important that she be rewarded for what she did you right which was go back to sleep. I wish the ice would melt so we can go play more out back its one huge sheet of ice.. if we had skates we could go ice skating. Not kidding. Just not safe back there.. its slowly melting though. Its been pretty dry the past month weather wise. But cold hence the ice.

Guest of honor has arrived!

YEAH!!!!!! It feels so good to see that box again! FedEx man didnt run back to the truck this time lol dont think he read the box this time... good for him. OMG Im so so excited its here.... now waiting for + ovulation test yippeee yippeee yippeeee YEAH! Ok just a little excited...

WOOHOOO

Feb 5, 2009 9:35 AM
On FedEx vehicle for delivery

YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!!!!

Pink polka dot pjs

I am sitting here waiting for FedEx to show up with my goods. I am wearing dark pink (I hate pink!!) PJ's with large rainbow colored polka dots on them lol think of how this will go down if FedEx shows before I get dressed. I mean do I really want to scare him more then he already is?? LOL... I can imagine if I were that driver dropping a "NW cryobank" box off at some ladies door who is dressed in bright polka dot pj's. That's a mixed up thought lol... ah well nothing better to do at the moment.... I guess I should go get dressed :)