Wonderful news!

Less then a day after the first email from NW Cryobank, they have informed me that we wil not have to pay the dewar deposit of $500!!! YIPEEEEEEEE!!! My client registration is formally completed and I may place an order as anytime :) so so so just so excited!!! We cannot wait until Jan!!! Gosh Im so excited!

News from N.W Cryobank

Well after 5 days of waiting since mailing off my Client registration, N.W has confirmed that they have received the paperwork!!! Yay!!! Now another week waiting game for them to decide whether we will have to pay the $500 dewar deposit. Once all that's taken care of our account will be officially opened and we can then order :)...... OMG I am so excited! One step closer and it feels wonderful so wonderful....

Preparing

I cannot help myself, I have started organizing the few items (that i didn't sell upon news that Jeff was sterile) and moving some furniture around in the spare bedroom. This baby's nursery will be themed frogs :) yup we have already decided... long in advance, heck we have had nearly 2 years to think about it. Names are picked.... now come on 2009! We have been talking to Kaylie and hearing her thoughts on having a baby brother or sister and sharing and all that and she is very excited at the idea which is so awesome. She is 3 and has never had to compete or share much of her parents time.... so her excitement is reassuring that she is ready and will handle a new baby in the house in the future. All things change no doubt but right now everything seems to be looking up... we are just waiting for the magic month to come and to get the green light from the cryobank.... waiting sucks but I WILL live. Just another chapter in our lives...

Choosing a Cryobank, Donor and month

After deciding to try home insemenation. Our next step was to choose a sperm bank....since we already decided we were doing home insemenation, we only found one bank that delivers to you home without a doctor in the middle. So we chose N.W Cryobank in Spokane, WA. Last week we filed all the paperwork and forms tenatively choosing our donor list. They have reasonable prices and seem to have very good success rates. Our ttc month has now changed from Jan 2010 to Jan 2009!!!!!!!! I am more excited then words can ever express. Less then 6 weeks and we will be trying our first month again for #2! (Jan again :)) I thought to myself if I can get pregnant with Kaylie at the drop of a hat not really trying, with low sperm counts the... I shouldn't have any trouble using frozon donor sperm! Now we are just waiting for our registration paperwork to be processed with N.W Cryobank which should be completed by next week. I will be using Dec as a test run, making sure I have my cycle down pat so that when Jan comes around I will have the dates all lined up :) Order, ship, arrive, test, thaw, insemenate and pray that mother nature makes this happen! This will happen, maybe not the 1st try but it will I have high hopes.... for the first time in almost 2 years I fel like we are actually working toward our goal. I feel confident we have a good chance of having a late 2009 bub! I am leaving stuff out no doubt but from here on out I will be updating consistantly for my own sanity... if you are reading this and for whatever reason disagree with our decesions please dont read any further, dont send negative comments, we need to surround ourselves with positive encouraging people.

2/28/2008- to present- History of ttc

In 2007 my husband and I decided to start trying to get pregnant with out second child. A year passed nothing happened. Lets go back to Jan 2005..... January 2005 we made a decision of starting a family. That month we were ever to blessed to become pregnant the 1st month of trying (well we never REALLY tried). Kaylie was born Oct 4th 2005. In Jan 2006 my husband had corrective surgery to repair a large inguinal hernia. Thinking it would be a snap to fall pregnant with #2..... early 2007 we decided we would plan on #2. 2007 came and went and we weren't pregnant. Jan (seeing Jan as an important mo yet?lol) anyway January 2008 we sought out our GP and DH had a SA one few days later we found out that test came back ZERO sperm.... my gut knew this all along I think. That surgery damaged the pathways, sperm cannot exit and not much of a corrective option. We then traveled to see the best fertility specialist in the north west. After $1000 later and much testing they confirmed the zero sperm diagnosis. We were left with 2 options, Adoption, IVF-ICSI, or donor insemination. Adoption was something we both liked however the expense of this isn't an option... lets not start on this topic right now (how so many unwanted children in this world yet you have to pay a small fortune!) That left Ivf ($20,000 for one cycle, no guarantee) we simply cannot afford or take this risk right now... that's only it after putting Jeff through surgery to find out if they can find sperm somewhere.That left us with option to use a donor or to not try for another. I'm sorry the desire to have children cannot be fixed or taken away from me. Its been a very long and painfully emotional 10 months for both Jeff and myself.. no words could even express this.... we have jointly (after many many tears, talks and trust) decided to go ahead with donor insemination. Our reproductive endocrinologist wanted to put me on fertility drugs to enhance odds of pregnancy... I am very sensitive to all drugs as it is... so after much research we have decided to hold off using our RE, drugs, iui all that and save the $5000 it would cost to try for 3 months and try home insemination.... maybe odd for some people however at home is where we conceived our beautiful daughter :) and where we intend to create the next life.

Why I decided to blog...

I don't have many places to rant, rave, vent or openly talk about the ever so frustrating and emotionally challenging journey as we try to conceive our second child. This is my special spot just for this purpose.... to blog for my own peace of mind and sanity... to get what I need to say out ..... and the journey begins! PLEASE IF YOU DISAGREE WITH OUR DECISIONS FOR WHATEVER REASON DO NOT READ ANYMORE! WE DON'T NEED ANY NEGATIVE COMMENTS.Thank you.