2/28/2008- to present- History of ttc

In 2007 my husband and I decided to start trying to get pregnant with out second child. A year passed nothing happened. Lets go back to Jan 2005..... January 2005 we made a decision of starting a family. That month we were ever to blessed to become pregnant the 1st month of trying (well we never REALLY tried). Kaylie was born Oct 4th 2005. In Jan 2006 my husband had corrective surgery to repair a large inguinal hernia. Thinking it would be a snap to fall pregnant with #2..... early 2007 we decided we would plan on #2. 2007 came and went and we weren't pregnant. Jan (seeing Jan as an important mo yet?lol) anyway January 2008 we sought out our GP and DH had a SA one few days later we found out that test came back ZERO sperm.... my gut knew this all along I think. That surgery damaged the pathways, sperm cannot exit and not much of a corrective option. We then traveled to see the best fertility specialist in the north west. After $1000 later and much testing they confirmed the zero sperm diagnosis. We were left with 2 options, Adoption, IVF-ICSI, or donor insemination. Adoption was something we both liked however the expense of this isn't an option... lets not start on this topic right now (how so many unwanted children in this world yet you have to pay a small fortune!) That left Ivf ($20,000 for one cycle, no guarantee) we simply cannot afford or take this risk right now... that's only it after putting Jeff through surgery to find out if they can find sperm somewhere.That left us with option to use a donor or to not try for another. I'm sorry the desire to have children cannot be fixed or taken away from me. Its been a very long and painfully emotional 10 months for both Jeff and myself.. no words could even express this.... we have jointly (after many many tears, talks and trust) decided to go ahead with donor insemination. Our reproductive endocrinologist wanted to put me on fertility drugs to enhance odds of pregnancy... I am very sensitive to all drugs as it is... so after much research we have decided to hold off using our RE, drugs, iui all that and save the $5000 it would cost to try for 3 months and try home insemination.... maybe odd for some people however at home is where we conceived our beautiful daughter :) and where we intend to create the next life.