Just in case you didn't know I love waiting

I am suppose to hear back on lab results... well not the entire picture but part of it anyway. To be honest not sure I want to hear back. I have only allowed myself to get excited over the fact swimmers did there job, I refused from the moment I took a + test to get excited over being pregnant. I gotta admit, sitting in the waiting room sucked. Surrounded by all these beautiful huge pregnant women was a downer. While sitting and waiting for the little old women who came in for blood work to the wrong place to get done, the tv ran an informative dvd.... they were talking about infertility, using donor sperm etc. It was entertaining however I would much rather be one of those women that were huge pregnant (I know I'm going to get more then I ask for, and regret saying that one day lol) The lab tech who was very knowledgeable and so kind, asked me if I was pregnant. I simply replied well whats your sheet say this test is for? I kinda laughed annoyed at the question, she then asked well do you feel pregnant? Again being annoyed chuckled. I want things simple please. If I am carrying a viable pregnancy wonderful! If not, I would like to keep moving forward. I want answers. I'm tired of waiting. I am hoping for this HUGE beta result or zero... mother nature please don't give me anything between. Please.....