I need to vent for a moment:
I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING BIRTH CONTROL COMMERCIALS!!
I AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR + OPK- I FREAKING DESERVE A + ALREADY!
I AM READY TO TALK TO MY BODY NOT A FREAKING BOX IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM!
I have been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster tonight. I can only take for many neg opk's in a day. I thought for sure I would get + by now. Goes to show you. Nothing is predictable. I have had discouraging thoughts, and talked to someone very important to me had good laughs.... I just wanna cry now. Maybe I'm just tired. I had a great day today. Once I get that + everything will seems so much better. I try to relax and not think about it..... cant help it. I'm more frustrated then anything right now. I need to change my mind set not sure I can do that tonight. I need to go to bed and wake up refreshed tomorrow for a new day. Why does life have so many waiting aspects?? I know all of this ups and downs is part my journey, our journey and will be well worth it in the end... up until today there hasn't been too much ups and downs this cycle I have felt really good. Maybe feeling this emotional means ovulation is approaching hmmm yeah I think Ill go with that for now.... Everything is ready for the green light to go... it feels like I'm sitting in a traffic jam about 30 cars back right now... I need to learn to be patient how does one learn this? I have been reminding myself along with help from others to breathe..... soon the swim team will be striving for the gold metal... it will be here before I know it. Please + come soon... tired of reminding myself of things!! Off to bed.
2 comments:
Hang in there sweetie! As hard as it is, try to relax. That helps. Thinking of you!!
Ditto what Tammy said! Hang in there, it will come!
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