I'm gonna keep the tank until Monday at the latest, when I o late its always exactly 1 week (not sure why) so that's this Fri sat sun approx.... if I don't get a + then Ill simply send it all back on Monday :) So that's that, not even worrying about it now...
On another note we'll be visiting Ca in 3 weeks yipeeee. I cant wait. I got lots I wanna do and people to see! We aren't tell immediate family we are coming, easier that way the trip isn't planned for us and no tug of war involved! Just the 3 of us it will be fun oh and Brinkley too! Yeah! Cant wait.... we tend to plan our trips on a spur of a moment lol 3 weeks is longer then normal really. OK that all for now :)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I have made a decision I think
If I dont dont get a + opk by thursday afternoon I am sending the vials/dewar back and try again next month and will just be out the $130 shipping. The dewar is due to be shipped back On Thursday. If I get a positive on Thursday I will keep it an extra day and send it back on Friday. I am hoping and hoping I get a + soon. Please mother nature... work with my body please please please! Not sure whats up and why the late ovulation this cycle so odd. Maybe its a sign this month isnt meant to be. Im trying to stay positive but out of all the thing waiting I didnt ever think I would be waiting to ovulate. It is what it is. Im not stressed over it, Im more disappointed. Nothing I can do can change it but wait and see what mother nature has in store.....
Sunday, February 8, 2009
No sure what to call this post
I need to vent for a moment:
I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING BIRTH CONTROL COMMERCIALS!!
I AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR + OPK- I FREAKING DESERVE A + ALREADY!
I AM READY TO TALK TO MY BODY NOT A FREAKING BOX IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM!
I have been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster tonight. I can only take for many neg opk's in a day. I thought for sure I would get + by now. Goes to show you. Nothing is predictable. I have had discouraging thoughts, and talked to someone very important to me had good laughs.... I just wanna cry now. Maybe I'm just tired. I had a great day today. Once I get that + everything will seems so much better. I try to relax and not think about it..... cant help it. I'm more frustrated then anything right now. I need to change my mind set not sure I can do that tonight. I need to go to bed and wake up refreshed tomorrow for a new day. Why does life have so many waiting aspects?? I know all of this ups and downs is part my journey, our journey and will be well worth it in the end... up until today there hasn't been too much ups and downs this cycle I have felt really good. Maybe feeling this emotional means ovulation is approaching hmmm yeah I think Ill go with that for now.... Everything is ready for the green light to go... it feels like I'm sitting in a traffic jam about 30 cars back right now... I need to learn to be patient how does one learn this? I have been reminding myself along with help from others to breathe..... soon the swim team will be striving for the gold metal... it will be here before I know it. Please + come soon... tired of reminding myself of things!! Off to bed.
I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING BIRTH CONTROL COMMERCIALS!!
I AM TIRED OF WAITING FOR + OPK- I FREAKING DESERVE A + ALREADY!
I AM READY TO TALK TO MY BODY NOT A FREAKING BOX IN THE CORNER OF MY ROOM!
I have been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster tonight. I can only take for many neg opk's in a day. I thought for sure I would get + by now. Goes to show you. Nothing is predictable. I have had discouraging thoughts, and talked to someone very important to me had good laughs.... I just wanna cry now. Maybe I'm just tired. I had a great day today. Once I get that + everything will seems so much better. I try to relax and not think about it..... cant help it. I'm more frustrated then anything right now. I need to change my mind set not sure I can do that tonight. I need to go to bed and wake up refreshed tomorrow for a new day. Why does life have so many waiting aspects?? I know all of this ups and downs is part my journey, our journey and will be well worth it in the end... up until today there hasn't been too much ups and downs this cycle I have felt really good. Maybe feeling this emotional means ovulation is approaching hmmm yeah I think Ill go with that for now.... Everything is ready for the green light to go... it feels like I'm sitting in a traffic jam about 30 cars back right now... I need to learn to be patient how does one learn this? I have been reminding myself along with help from others to breathe..... soon the swim team will be striving for the gold metal... it will be here before I know it. Please + come soon... tired of reminding myself of things!! Off to bed.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Opk is getting darker!
Getting closer to our positive ovulation test...... matter of time... i bet today or tonight tomorrow by noon for sure. I am thinking today so far we shall see. I know I say that a lot. We shall see.
Why does my 3 year daughter have an obsession with spider man?? I am burnt out of spider man the movie.. spider man v smile game... spider man everything! Hope this phase ends soon lol She even has a stuffed spider man she sleeps with. Weird obsession not even sure where it started lol. We are working hard to get her sleep in her bed all night without getting up and waking us (its now a habit).. she used to be such a great sleeper. Now using a sticker chart so every night when she sleeps all night in the morning she gets to choose a sticker for her chart. When she gets to 7 stickers she gets to go to the zoo and see the new zebra there. She is very excited about this of course! We plan on getting an annual pass for the zoo soon, we go there enough lol. Last night she got up but stayed in her bed after I put her back so she got a sticker for at least staying after she woke up but it didn't go on her chart just a personal reward because I think its still important that she be rewarded for what she did you right which was go back to sleep. I wish the ice would melt so we can go play more out back its one huge sheet of ice.. if we had skates we could go ice skating. Not kidding. Just not safe back there.. its slowly melting though. Its been pretty dry the past month weather wise. But cold hence the ice.
Why does my 3 year daughter have an obsession with spider man?? I am burnt out of spider man the movie.. spider man v smile game... spider man everything! Hope this phase ends soon lol She even has a stuffed spider man she sleeps with. Weird obsession not even sure where it started lol. We are working hard to get her sleep in her bed all night without getting up and waking us (its now a habit).. she used to be such a great sleeper. Now using a sticker chart so every night when she sleeps all night in the morning she gets to choose a sticker for her chart. When she gets to 7 stickers she gets to go to the zoo and see the new zebra there. She is very excited about this of course! We plan on getting an annual pass for the zoo soon, we go there enough lol. Last night she got up but stayed in her bed after I put her back so she got a sticker for at least staying after she woke up but it didn't go on her chart just a personal reward because I think its still important that she be rewarded for what she did you right which was go back to sleep. I wish the ice would melt so we can go play more out back its one huge sheet of ice.. if we had skates we could go ice skating. Not kidding. Just not safe back there.. its slowly melting though. Its been pretty dry the past month weather wise. But cold hence the ice.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Guest of honor has arrived!
YEAH!!!!!! It feels so good to see that box again! FedEx man didnt run back to the truck this time lol dont think he read the box this time... good for him. OMG Im so so excited its here.... now waiting for + ovulation test yippeee yippeee yippeeee YEAH! Ok just a little excited...
Pink polka dot pjs
I am sitting here waiting for FedEx to show up with my goods. I am wearing dark pink (I hate pink!!) PJ's with large rainbow colored polka dots on them lol think of how this will go down if FedEx shows before I get dressed. I mean do I really want to scare him more then he already is?? LOL... I can imagine if I were that driver dropping a "NW cryobank" box off at some ladies door who is dressed in bright polka dot pj's. That's a mixed up thought lol... ah well nothing better to do at the moment.... I guess I should go get dressed :)
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