Weather delays

Jeff sent over a severe weather warning for Spokane AGAIN! These poor people have 50 something inches of snow in Dec alone. more expected. So concerns reguarding delayed shipment/arrival popped up. Only 5 hours between them and us but 2 days fedex so they agreed moving the date closer by a day wouldnt hurt. Although most delays have been at other main plane hubs and west of Spokane but there is still a large mt range so no chances. So thats that. Kaylie has been up sick 2 nights in a row poor thing wakes her self up every 15 min from being so congested. Humidifier didnt seem much help. Hope tonight we all get to sleep sound, she needs her rest. Tonight is the last drink for a long long time, not that I drink much but still. And in with the new year yippee!

Game plan

After a couple days of discouragement, I think tomorrow will be a better day. No! tomorrow will be a better day. I have a game plan that I am going to try my best to stick to. I don't need the negativity, it only harms. I will try my best to have a positive attitude, surround myself with positive people with positive thoughts and here's the kicker, walk away from all negativity (thanks F). Simply to not react, as reacting only makes it 100 times worse. I know from experience if I don't react to someones negativity, I will not be feeding into it and there it ends. I have a bit more then a week until our official ttc begins. No more of this crap. No more. No more caffeine, last drink will be new years eve. Jeff even said he plans on jumping on the no more drinking ban wagon lol. Change starts tomorrow. I need to get back to the place where I was just a mere couple days ago. Excitement and optimism. Life is not all that bad really. I have a perfect daughter, healthy and so full of life (well except the cold she has come down with today) the worlds most loving husband, we don't always see eye to eye but he is completely supportive. We have a big beautiful home and stability...all with love. Past couple days were just a small emotional hurtle in the scheme of things. Lifes all about ups and downs.

A privacy statement- or there lack of

After some consideration I have decided to leave my blog public. This is who I am and me blogging about whats important to me and my family. Please leave all negative thoughts behind if you wish to follow my blog. Only positive comments are welcomed. I created this blog spot for the sole purpose of blogging for myself, not for others and therefore have decided I will continue to do so on a public blog, Thank you.

A moment of Reflection

Today the day after Christmas.... when my sweet 3 year old daughter put on those brand new skates from Santa I realized she is getting so so grown up... the appearance of the skates making her taller then she already is really made me think wow time has gone by so so very fast. She is amazing, she is her very own little person with her own opinion (on EVERYTHING might I add lol) Christmas was wonderful... we have gotton so much snow (for our neck of the woods anyhow) and built a snowboarding hill in the backyard last night. Spent much of the holiday relaxing and eating omg have I eaten after this I am so getting back on track I was doing so well! I will get back on track next week after the new year is done, new years will be my final drink (for what we hope is a long time :)... The swimmers will be here Jan 7th... today reality really hit home, in less then 2 weeks we will offically be trying for #2. I pray to the freaking fertility gods it works. However We are prepared to try for a year if need be. I cannot express the feelings of confience, excitement and optimism I have right now. Everything has fallen exactly into place. This will happen I tell myself everyday... no matter how long it takes we WILL get there and create a sibling for Kaylie and complete our family of 4. The $529 has offically cleared my bank account. It's real now. Everything is planned and set.... af showed exactly on the day she was planned its perfect really... everything is going perfect right now... Thats all for now.

I did it! I did it! I did it! :) I ordered

AHHHHHHH! Yes I did it :) I placed my first order today the staff were so very helpful and nw. Very kind and respectful as well. I ordered 2 ici vials for Jan 7Th delivery ~2009 ekkkkkk... I am so excited I feel like we are really part way there! It has been less then a month ago that I discovered NW. I am so glad I did. My swim team are ordered :) Can I say that again?! My swim team are ordered :) After talking with DH we have decided to at the last minute change the donor list that were originally had all around..... went with my gut on this one and feel WONDERFUL about the change. This donor is also left handed (same as myself and DH) health is the most important factor for us in choosing a particular number. Now off to enjoy my family and Christmas. We are so blessed already... COME ON BEAN! I may go ahead and plan on FEB and buy Feb vials before the price hike the 1st of the year. If we don't need them we can store them, and if we do need them we will have saved a few bucks :)

Christmas is in the air

I snowed lots last night everything is coated snow, its stunningly beautiful outside this morning with the sun shining at 15 degrees out :)- at 10am no less. My brother arrived safely on Tuesday and we have been having a blast! He is here another week and a half yay! Santa comes next week too! Everything is wonderful right now, family is together for the holidays, good food and good times what more can I ask for right now? Nothing. Its perfect. What a great way to forget about the waiting waiting waiting for January to come! Speaking of I will be placing my order on Monday YEAH!!! 2 vials here we come! I am relaxed and enjoying this christmas... I have a sense that this will be the last one with bug as an only child. I love the no stress factor right now... my goal is to continue with no stress from now until the big Insemination dates yup yup. Body you NEED to stay on track :) Decemeber is a wonderful time of year for me :)

It's Snowing!! and other ramblings

Welp its finally snowing :) everything is coated in white fluffy goodness. Oh how I love the white Fluffy stuff it makes me feel wonderful! Not a ton accumulated yet but hey its here at least! The low is suppose to be 12 tonight and 7 tomorrow night hahahaha.... my brother Matt flies in from Ca tomorrow afternoon and staying until after Christmas I miss him tons (they say twins have a special connection or something) He and Jeff are looking forward to riding the mountain this weekend. Its bitterly cold... have I mention I LOVE it? :) Onto other news hahaha what else but baby news? eh?? I found out pleasantly so today that shipping cost for the swimmers is going to $30 less then plan whooohooo... every dime counts these days. We have also made the decision to go ahead and order 2 vials for January instead of just 1 to better the odds on the first attempt. I will be placing my order in 2 weeks whew! Its starting to feel real now! I have been feeling so positive and encouraged about ttc in Jan, patience isn't my strong point no doubt. Few selected family members know about our plans to home inseminate, mainly the people who know about this blog... and I really truly appreciate the support we have received since making this decision to do this! OK enough for now....