A moment of Reflection

Today the day after Christmas.... when my sweet 3 year old daughter put on those brand new skates from Santa I realized she is getting so so grown up... the appearance of the skates making her taller then she already is really made me think wow time has gone by so so very fast. She is amazing, she is her very own little person with her own opinion (on EVERYTHING might I add lol) Christmas was wonderful... we have gotton so much snow (for our neck of the woods anyhow) and built a snowboarding hill in the backyard last night. Spent much of the holiday relaxing and eating omg have I eaten after this I am so getting back on track I was doing so well! I will get back on track next week after the new year is done, new years will be my final drink (for what we hope is a long time :)... The swimmers will be here Jan 7th... today reality really hit home, in less then 2 weeks we will offically be trying for #2. I pray to the freaking fertility gods it works. However We are prepared to try for a year if need be. I cannot express the feelings of confience, excitement and optimism I have right now. Everything has fallen exactly into place. This will happen I tell myself everyday... no matter how long it takes we WILL get there and create a sibling for Kaylie and complete our family of 4. The $529 has offically cleared my bank account. It's real now. Everything is planned and set.... af showed exactly on the day she was planned its perfect really... everything is going perfect right now... Thats all for now.